The Bravohood

I've never been through so many deaths in a month. Starting a month ago, a friend of mine, my ex-roommate, overdosed on heroin and died. I missed his funeral to play an audition out in Oregon. Then a short while before Halloween, my parents put the dog down. He was old and unhealthy, and it was his time, but I loved him and it hit me hard. This morning, my grandma died. I sure hope this is the last one I have to deal with in the near future... but we don't get to pick and choose when these things happen. They just happen, and we trudge on.

The days are getting darker now, too. It all kind of compounds, one thing stacked on another, stacked on another. I'm finding it hard these days to do the work that needs to be done. I was just starting to bounce back, and get back into the swing of things again. The sun lamp has been helping with the seasonal stuff, but the only thing I know of for dealing with death is time. It's been hard finding the right time to grieve, though. It's odd, to look at my schedule, and say to myself, "Monday. That's when I can have a break down. I'll pencil it in." I know it needs to happen, and I know it can't happen quite yet, though. Tonight I've got a concert, and tomorrow I've got a church performance and some violin students. After that, I'll probably travel back to Milwaukee or Madison for the funeral, whenever it happens.

I'm not looking for advice. I just needed a place to type this out. It helps me sort through things, and it's a lot easier for me to type it than to talk about it right now.

Everything in its time, and this too shall pass. Thanks, guys.

It sucks man..and other guys here can offer more first hand exp. than I.

But that's just the way it goes as we get older...

All we can do is keep on, keeping on. Learn from it and use it as motivation to do the most we can with the time we have.