The Bravohood

Every once and a while you come to yourself. I've always been good looking, but recently I've let myself go. I'm finally admitting to myself that I don't have the body of spartan that I used to have at 19. I've realized that I've slowly allowed myself to become a whiny bitch that would rather sit at home, drink, and play xbox instead of going out to a party to meet new people.

Anyways enough self hate. On to the changes and what I've begin to notice.

1. I've decided that I'm going to get back into killer ship. I'm on my third week of the Marsoc 10 week fitness prep. It consist of 5 days of cross fit isn style workouts that include swimming, lots of running, and running with a 45+ pound pack.

It's been kicking my ass, but I have been noticing how much more energy I've been having, and how much better I feel. My first workout my 1 mile time was almost 8 minutes and I thought I was going to need ambulance. On this mondays workout I ran a 6:16 mile and 10:10 mile and half.

2. I've been stepping away from the sauce. I feel like my excessive drinking has been giving me ED/ stressing my finances/ keeping me fat/ and lowing my standards with woman. I've decided that I'm not going to drink alone anymore. I'll allow my self 1 or 2 nights a week to drink, but it has to be in good company.

The days I've been sober, I've noticed my sleep is better. My cock gets up faster and stays harder. Also I don't waste my time with ratchet girls, and I've been having wet dreams.

3. I'm a week into the slow carb diet. It's from Tim Feriss book. Since I started, I've lost a little weight, but I have already cut my guy from 37" to 35". This combined with cutting alcohol might be causing my new boner activity (which I love).

My next step...

1. Grow balls and start opening girls on campus, and making time to pick up girls while I'm in school.
2. finding new hobbies to help me from drinking when I've got nothing going on.
3. Give up the bitch self I am right now to be the man I know I can be.

These aren't small changes, they are lifestyle changes which will drastically improve your life. Awesome man, keep it up.

So I started my diet about 2-3 weeks ago. I was at 210. My weight over the past week has fluctuated between 197-201. I still have about 10-15 lbs to go before I'll hit my goal. I bought a really fancy body tape measurer. I'd highly recommend it to everyone trying to change their boy. in the past 10 days I haven't really seen a big change on the scale, but I've been recoding my waist and belly size everyday.

I've gone from having a 37.4/35 inch belly (relaxed/sucking in) to 35.1/33.8. Also I've lost almost an inch on my waist (36 to 35.3). Feels so damn good to track your progress and see your efforts pay off.

I haven't quite been able to cut the alcohol. I had a beer yesterday and got tipsy sunday night. It's definitely less drinking than 2-3 weeks ago (I was burning thru 1-2 handles a week).

I've done pretty good on not playing xbox as much. I still indulge in a game or two of battlefield if I've had a productive day at work or school.

I've been smiling and saying hi to strangers. Still haven't really approached or opened.

I've realized that I have some messed up beliefs about myself that are untrue.

-I think a part of me likes to be depressed so I can drink, be lazy, and not take responsibility.

-I've become so used to 'my life' and hanging out with myself that I don't like putting myself out there.

-I don't think I'm fun/whatever enough for a 9 or 10. When in reality I have a lot of really gorgeous girl friends (many of which I've hooked up) that love me. In the last year, i don't think I've gone more than a week without at least making out with a girl.

As a person who has come back from fatfuckedness twice in his life I can tell you that you will feel a million times better. It's important that you really accept your new transformation though, and maintain your new 'current' image once you let your weight stabilize. Best of luck and stay tough!